There are many reasons to why I write. Its like a form of therapy for me, you can get out all of your thoughts onto the page without the fear of judgment. A piece of paper doesn't have the impact that a person has, it can't tell you that your writing sucks or that you've made to many mistakes that you shouldn't even bother writing anymore. Writing is a safe place for me to say what I want to, to tell about my experiences may they be good or may they be the most terrifying thing I've ever been put through.
When I write I am able to sat who I really am. I'm able to say that I am Jaymie Lynn, a victim of the cruelness of man, and a survivor in turn. My name may not matter when I write, but I know that my story does. I've learned through reading other peoples work that the bullsh*t we call life happens to others, and I really am not alone. And that my horrible experiences are not one of a kind, but that others have gone through them too.
No one knows my full story. No one knows all of the reasons why I write. Hell I don't even know them myself. I will however tell you that the moment my fingers touch those keys or my pen hits that paper, I am completely relaxed and ready to explore what I am feeling. I write to find that place of peace. To find out who I am right now, in this very moment. Honestly, most of the time I'm just full of sh*t. I don't know who I am! I just sit there and the first thing that cones into my mind, I start to write it all out. A lot of the time its the same topic, the day that my innocence was ripped from me. Many people don't see why I have to revisit that in my writing, and neither do I. Whenever I write about it, I feel like a piece of it is leaving me, and I can hopefully feel safe again. Writing helps me to get to that safe place. I may not feel safe now, or happy, or honestly feel anything, but when I write that is the only time I can feel. I know that what I am writing can affect someone is a positive way, and hopefully help them.
I was asked why I write. I write to get away and help people with my story. I write to find out who the hell I am. I write because I want to. I write because I can.
Words have the power to transform us. I'm proud of you for exploring yourself through such a positive outlet. I'm very glad you're in this class. <3
ReplyDeleteI really like how you are writing. I was the same way, I didn't know who I was, didn't know where I was and didn't know what I wanted. Ever since I started blogging, I feel happier. It is a way to release everything, all the emotions and a great way to remember. Blogging will help you find who you are. It will help you find your WHY. It will change you, I've experienced it. It's amazing.
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ReplyDeleteThe pursuit of peace. Because you can. Those are such pure reasons to be writing. I hope you can always keep that sense of feeling and peace when you write.
ReplyDeleteThat is great. I feel the same way when i try to write i try to discover who i am if im not lieing to myself. I am truly sorry about what happened to you and hope that one day you can come to terms with what heppened
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